3/5/26 — i’ve decided to start dating these, so I remember, and such..

AAHH!!! I have felt like I’ve been hit on the head and knocked out for the past week. Got my wisdom teeth out, and then sat on my butt for about four days straight. Eat mush, sleep, stardew valley, sleep, sleep, etc. 

back to work though… School is now more in session than ever.. I’m not so happy about that, because I have two essays due this weekend. BUT I have one more week, and then spring break!!!!

“Big” news.. I’ve made the decision to postpone my spring tour. With having Mono, needingtoquitmyjob/quittingit/gettingnewjobs, Wisdom teeth, and now Midterms in addition to make up work, I simply can’t find the time or effort to pick through the scraps of what I was already scrounging for in a week and a half… 

It makes me really sad to feel like i’ve been defeated once again by the elements around me. This “tour” was really exciting to me, but I didn’t hear back from most of my connections until like two or so weeks ago anyways.. so it’s probably best to just let it go.

This summer i will NOT be dicking around, I want to MAKE THINGS HAPPEN !!!

AND, with that being said, this time has given me a lot of opportunity for introspection though.. I am ready to BE EXCITED again! Lots of thinking led me to lots of writing. which led me to being scared, yet understanding that I will prevail and persevere! 

I’m most excited to eat really solid food again soon. I’m going to hang out with Mikail tonight and I am hoping to eat something yummy. I had leftover Shakshuka that me and Cosi made this morning featuring a perfect-one-person-portion and one egg in it! (+naan) 

I’ve gotten a few replies to these posts and it makes me so happy to see that some people are enjoying anything that I’ve said in any capacity. I received a message from old friends  Morgan & Jude via these posts, and I’m inspired by the community flounder is made up of. 

If you have any thoughts of any kinds about this at all, let me know ! 
goomanstl@gmail.com